Weekend recap

Yesterday was Macalester's Class of 2009 Graduation. I had so many friends graduate, and I'm sad that I won't be seeing them next year. But luckily, many of them will be in St. Paul over the summer, so I get to enjoy their company for the next couple of months. Thank goodness.

Saturday began quite badly - I am very anxious about tomorrow (my first visit to the Emily Program). Unfortunately, the combination of being anxious about that, lonely due to the fact that I'm the only one on my floor right now, and having a really hard time with my body right now lead to the worst b/p (mainly b) episode I've ever had. I felt terrible - I crawled back into bed, and took a nap before preparing for graduation. It helped a little, and the rest of the day went pretty well. I was able to take a long bike ride, which made me feel a little less guilty, but not much. I had a small supper - just some steamed asparagus and 1/2 a sweet potato. I wasn't hungry after the morning.

That being said, I woke up feeling famished - and proceeded to eat way too much again. My solution today has been to keep pretty active - I've taken 2 bike rides, walked a couple of miles, and cleaned/packed my room up (almost done!). I think the best thing to do right now, until my roommates come, is to buy small amounts of things, so I don't have tons of things to emotionally binge on. I'm going to talk to my boss and see if I can keep certain things (like bars) in a kitchen cupboard at work, so I can have them available during the day as snacks (which I know I'm supposed to eat), but they aren't there to ... help fuel Mr. ED. What do you guys think?

Hopefully my first day with the E.P. will go smoothly. I don't know what to expect - therapist session? nutritionist? I've had had ... some unhelpful experiences during high school when my parents forced me into therapy for depression and after they found out that I had been raped by our minister's son in 6th grade. I had kept so many terrible things bottled up for such a long time that it was difficult to open up to anyone about my most difficult feelings. I'm determined not to let that happen this time, but I'm scared sh*tless. Blogging (and all of my lovely blogger friends' support) has begun to let me loosen up a little bit, so I'm going to try to stay positive.

On the plus side - I have found a new favorite bar: the Toasted Nuts N' Cranberry Luna Bar. I mentioned earlier that I had tried the Chocolate Peppermint Stick bar and had a small problem with the texture. Toasted Nuts N' Cranberry is very different - its just like a good ol' fashioned trail mix granola bar, only better for you and (I think) better tasting: chewy, nutty, cranberry-y. I'm excited to try more of these bars.

Also - I just cooked myself a Kabocha - O. M. G. Love it! I've always been a squash lover (my parents tell me that my favorite type of baby food was the squash one), and this is no exception. I baked it for about 55 minutes at 400, and its amazing. Even the skin is good. I threw in some asparagus the last 10 minutes. This is an amazing dinner - I wasn't really hungry after this morning, but I knew I should eat something. This is perfect. Yum yum yum. I highly recommend kabocha to everyone. I look forward to all of the great things I can do with this, including some of An Apple A Day's wonderful suggestions.

Some food porn, just for kicks:

Oats, 1/2 a banana, 1/2 an apple, some cinnamon, and some unsweetened almond milk (yum).

Oats with 1/2 a banana, some strawberries, and cinnamon, topped with another 1/4 banana and some Kashi Go Lean.

I'll try to get some more foodie pictures up soon (found the camera cord, but no batteries!).

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Love to all you lovely ladies!

Emma