Here comes Mr. Sun

Hello all. :)

Oh, how I love the sun. In the past two days, I've spent about four hours lying in the sun, under beautiful blue skies reading absolutely ridiculous smut books. (Seriously - they are classified as 'paranormal romance'. Not your typical beach read, but hilarious and (unfortunately) quite catchy. Think Twilight for adults) And, to add to the wonderfulness of it all, I'm finally getting back to my normal skin color. The past year of living in MN has resulted in the palest skin I've ever had. Even in the winter in NM, I had some sort of color, but up here, my Irish and Scandanavian blood has taken over my lovely Italian shade. But now... bring on the tan.

That being said, I'm getting more of my cute Irish freckles. I love the ones on my shoulders.


Before I get to a review, I want to send my warmest, most heartfelt gratitude to everyone who has given so much support to me in the past couple of months. For the many years (read 6th grade to March 2009)that I pushed through by myself, trying to ignore my depression and perfectionism (before ED), I had no one to turn to. I love my parents and tell them almost everything, but I never turned to them because I didn't want them to worry about me. I didn't tell even the best of my friends because although I love them dearly, I didn't want to lose them, freak them out, or have their pity (and many of them were still adolescent boys, so I just didn't think they could deal. period). ED arrived in June of 2008, and until I started this blog, I pushed people away instead of reaching out. In the past couple of months, I have 'talked' to everyone who reads this, and the responses I have received have helped more than anyone can know.

I was given the strength to tell my parents and Geri, my high school gifted counselor/crazy 'aunt' lady.

I was given the courage to tell my voice teacher, the dean of students, and my accompanist.

I was given the inspiration to make an appointment at the Emily Program to get professional help (June 3rd is my first real meeting).

And last night, I was given the opportunity to reach out to a friend for help - something I never would have done without meeting all of you.

I know I've mentioned before that I 'adopt' people into my family. I consider each and everyone of you who has reached out to me in anyway family. I love you, and I just wanted to thank you.



And now, a review. :)

From the site:
GOLEAN Crunchy! bars are designed for an Optimized Glycemic Response with slow release carbohydrates to balance blood sugar, and protein and fiber to help you stay satisfied.

This is the 4th flavor of Kashi GoLean Crunchy bars that I've had (the only one I haven't tried is Chocolate Almond). The other flavors include Chocolate Peanut, Chocolate Pretzel, and Cinnamon Coffee Cake. I have loved all of them, but this one just didn't do it for me. It did have pices of puffed 'caramel' corn, but I though that the bar as a whole was rather bland. Of the bars, this one has the lowest amount of calories (by 10, but I would sacrifice those 10 calories for flavor. I do recommend this line of Kashi bars though - with 8g- 11g of protien, 4-5g fiber, and 3-5g fat, these are great either as part of a meal or snack. The other flavors are delicious, and I can't wait to try the 5th!

Kashi, you've done it again.

I found this picture in my iPhoto, and I don't remember when it was from, but I do remember it was delicious.

An sandwith thin with the the black bean/tofu stuff, tomato, carrots, mustard, and letuce, steamed carrots, and the new love of my life, kabocha. Thanks Sophia, for introducing us.

One of my roomies gets in to the TC tonight, as does one of my besties, who is staying the night in our room (she can't move into her house until tomorrow - the owner isn't quite done cleaning, apparently). I'm excited, and a little nervous. I have the food to make my own dinner (think either acorn squash, kabocha, or yam, with steamed carrots and broccoli), but I think we'll end up going out for dinner. I've been having some major eating issues lately, and I really want to feel 'safe' right now. In the past couple of days, I've cried for the first time in ... I don't remember how long during the phone call with my parents, and after yesterday, I'm still a little shaky. I do want to spend lots of time with them, but I don't want to have to worry about food. I am prepared to go out, but if we can avoid it, I'm all for that option.

I can't wait to hear the next development in Lo's soap butter opera. If you don't know what I'm talking about, go check it out. :)

Love you all,

Emma

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